Still going strong!

Again, my post is long overdue but after finishing our taxes (I LOVE doing them!) I thought I should write. I wish so much that our stinkin' scanner would work because we got a pretty good picture of our little skittle yesterday.

At my 9 week u/s last week baby was measuring exactly 9 weeks and the heartbeat looked great. He/she even wiggled a couple times!

Yesterday at my 10 week u/s baby measured a little bit behind. Depending on the angle, he/she measured 9 weeks 5 days or 9 weeks 6 days. My RE wasn't concerned at all since the heart still looked very good. I'm doing my best not to dwell on it and hopefully by next week he/she will have caught up some. I should also mention that as soon as we saw the baby my RE said, "He's clearly sucking his thumb!" Obviously, we don't know if "it" is a he or she but the point is that baby was sucking away! It was awesome! We also saw the umbilical cord coming from the belly and there was plenty of fluid around the baby.

Some other good news is that I was cleared to reduce my PIO!!! I get to stop completely after Sunday's dose! Thank you Jesus!! That will be such a blessing...to both of us.

The RE also said that we'll start talking about OB's at my next appt. I keep debating whether or not to go with a local OB-deliver at the hospital in town or use a midwife/birthing center in Tucson-which is connected to a hospital an hour away. To drive or not to drive. I go back and forth every day about it. I have another week to decide it looks like.

I'm going to work on our scanner and see if I can't get that bugger to work. I think taking a picture of the u/s with the camera just won't do it justice.

Thanks for checking up on me!

PIO BLOWS!

I have to go do my shot and I don't want to! Yes, I'm whining! I was given a larger gage needle the last time I was at the pharmacy and tonight is the night I have to use it! AHHHHHHHHHHHH! I'm going from a 25g to a 22g! That's a big difference for those of you who don't know!

It's worth it, it's worth it, it's worth it...hopefully I won't bleed to death from a puncture wound to the butt!

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Dh is my hero! He found a secret stash of 25g needles! There are only four of them left so I HAVE to remember to get more from my RE on Thursday! I was on the verge of tears with those 25g needles. You have no idea.

8 weeks and counting

I guess I should update my blog...I've been getting quite a bit of emails from ya'll asking me what's going on so I think it's time I tell you!

I had a scary spotting episode on Monday and completely freaked out. It was just several spots of brown blood but it got me thinking of the past and feeling more terrified than I have in a very long time. My last miscarriage began with brown blood and progressed from there. By the time I had a u/s (I think I was just over 8 weeks last time) the baby was already dead. You cannot even begin to imagine the fear that I felt on Monday. I called Dh at work crying hysterically...so much so that he thought someone broke in the house and was holding me hostage at gunpoint. I called my RE still crying and shaking and they said I could come in the next day for a u/s. Dh was able to go with me and I don't remember breathing through the u/s at all. My cervix was closed and the nurse was able to see where the bleed probably came from and showed me on the u/s. At that time I was 7 weeks 5 days along and there still was that beautiful heartbeat. The baby was fine and I wasn't bleeding at all by that point. Baby measured 9mm long.

Fast forward to Thursday (Jan 14): I still got to go back for ANOTHER u/s (my 5th one since finding out I was pg!) with my RE. Baby now measures 16mm! Personally, I think the nurse messed up the measurements because that's such a vast difference for only 2 days in between u/s's. I go back again next Thursday, Jan 21. I absolutely LOVE being monitored this much. It eases my mind more than you will ever know. (I'm still on PIO by the way and as much as I HATE it with a passion-I know it's worth every muscle ache and every scream of pain from the needle pinching the crap out of my bum. Four more weeks until I'm done!!!)

My next scary adventure will be finding an OB in this town and crawling through the hoops of Tricare.

I know people still have issues with IVF and I have gone over some of my thoughts and beliefs on the subject before but it still burns me that people have such strong opinions on something that know NOTHING about (infertility treatments in general). Just a word: I am a born again Christian and I think IVF is OK. I did NOT kill my embryos by doing IVF. I do not plan on killing ANY embryos that we still have. I would never do selective reduction. I would never donate any of our babies to research. I believe life begins with conception. PERIOD. Gender selection is just freaky and shouldn't be messed with. Rant over.

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I love you all!!!

6 Weeks 4 days:

I had another u/s today...We saw a heartbeat!!! I didn't get the beats per minute and I think if I did, I would just stress over it so I'm glad I didn't ask what it was. RE still says that things look great and I go back again on Jan 14 (exactly 8 weeks along) to see if there is growth and if there is still a heartbeat. I know we're not out of hot water yet, but at least I can check off one milestone.

This miracle is from your prayers. I cannot express how truly grateful I am that you all are still praying for me.

To God the glory forever.