My transfer is cancelled. It just seems that nothing works the way I want it to. I'm sure there is a reason (there always is) but that doesn't make things less painful right now. The doctors claim that I have a cyst or had one and that's what has caused the fluid around my ovaries. I'm still on my Lupron shots (going on week number four, wahoo) but stopped the Estrace. I'm in less pain now so I'm hoping for a miracle that when I go back for my appointment on Friday that there will be no more fluid and my lining is still great. (It was 8.5 mm!) Deep down I was hoping that my blog life would be short in that this would be my only cycle before getting pregnant. Not the case. Maybe God will allow it to still happen?? Do I continue to pray for things to work or do I just let this go knowing that God is still in control and future cycles will be better? Big questions for an even bigger God.