Here We Go Again...

I had my 32 week OB appt this morning (really I'm 32 weeks 5 days but couldn't get seen before this because of the holiday) and I wish things had gone better. I mean, weight and bp are still perfect but once again, I'm measuring small. This time I'm measuring 4 weeks behind. Not good. What Dr. S had talked about two weeks ago was that little or no growth is a bad thing-and ordered up the u/s I had with the Peri, which I had around 31 weeks gestation. Now that it's almost 2 weeks later and I've only grown 1cm, something isn't right. I saw Dr. K today and since I had just had the growth scan 10ish days ago-and Skittle was only measuring 5 days behind then, I won't be getting another u/s right now. Dr. K did say that they are going to keep an eye on things and will recheck me again in two weeks (at which time I also get to do the lovely vaginal swab for GBS (I can't remember what it stands for...). I'm not thrilled but you gotta do whatcha gotta do.

One thing that irritates the crap out of me is that I have to have an IV and must be strapped down for labor. I talked with the nurse about it today and she said that if I go to the hospital during early labor they will let me walk the halls and do intermittent monitoring but not during active labor. Give me a break! My plan is to go as naturally as possible without pain meds (though, I do know my pain tolerance is very low as AF cramps bring me to my knees and God help me-or Morphine-when I have a kidney stone but I at least want to try to go without an epidural) but I feel like I'm hitting a wall when it comes to how I want to labor and this hospital is making it difficult for me to feel like I can do it without meds! Did you know that 75% of women use an epidural during labor? My chances are high that I'll end up going that way-but shoot, I'd like like an environment that encourages NO meds! I asked if I was allowed to push in a different position other than on my back and I was told NO if the doc was catching the baby. It makes my decision to labor here in town bittersweet as I know that if I was to be at that birthing center in Tucson, they would let me do it how I want to. (Such as pushing on all fours or squatting-which greatly reducing the chance for tearing, labor in a tub, eating small snacks to keep my strength up, not having an IV, etc.) I don't want to regret my decision but it's hard not to think about that.

I'll post my 3d/4d pictures and pictures of the nursery in my next post as I'm going to post a link to that blog entry on FB.

Thanks for reading!