People have asked if/when we are going to try for another baby. It's hard to answer them. I had always made it a point to NEVER ask someone if they planned on having children or if they wanted more. What's funny is that I actually don't mind them asking me now. I sure used to though. I would almost be in tears over it. I knew how it felt to desperately want children and I didn't want others feeling like that if they too couldn't have kids. The journey for Skittle was painful, heartbreaking, joyful, and yet, in the end, wonderful-but with that said, I'm not too anxious to do it again. My husband thinks that we should "knock some more out" (his words, NOT mine) and I then remind him of the shots, the what ifs/miscarriages, morning sickness, kidney stones, and a separated pelvis. He then says, "and wasn't she worth it?"
When we decide that we want to jump on the baby making roller coaster again, it will be with an infertility specialist once more. We'll be attempting FET's (Frozen Embryo Transfers) with our remaining 12 embryos. There are MANY questions without answers right now as to how we're going to do it but from the medical prospective, it's much easier then the rounds of IVF I previously went through. (I'll explain the FETs in more detail later.)
I'm not going to assume that the FET will work on the first try. I'm not going to assume that if it does, that it will lead to a take home healthy baby (or two).
Infertility sucks. The things women (and men) go through to have a child is incredible. Does it make the bond between a mother and her baby just that much stronger? Life is a gift. A God given beautiful gift...whether through IVF or otherwise. Never take for granted your ability to have children. I know I won't.
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Infertility does suck! And people can be really insensitive. I pray all the time that I will not ever forget how much it hurt so that I never hurt someone else. I now how you feel about trying again though. Adoption is obviously very different then the medical route but both are filled with ups and downs, hopes and disappointments. You can just jump into in again until you are ready for whatever comes. We are in the same boat.
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