ie Mom's

A friend invited me to her church for a bible study in New Braunfels a couple months ago and while I was extremely hesitant to go, I'm glad I did. (If anyone knows me, they know that I have a VERY very difficult time walking into new situations or meeting new people and honestly, I don't do a good job of hiding that fact. I tend to be stand off-ish and quiet, probably making myself look stuck up and rude. I am so sorry if I've ever come across that way to anyone. I've been working on it...I wish I knew why I was like that.) Anyway, The study was on the Psalms of Accent done by Beth Moore. We finished the 7 week study last Monday and a couple of us decided we would transfer over to another bible study called ie Mom's. Being my typical Angie self, I was nervous about meeting new mothers and coming in to the group 7 weeks late. I was put at a table with six other women who were a wide spread of ages-though, I was definitely the youngest. Of course, today they decide to have a raffle type drawing for mentors and since I was "young" I got a ticket. The first numbers were called out and the winner got a coffee date with an older women to "swap stories". I was seriously praying (yes, PRAYING to GOD) that my numbers wouldn't be called. While I liked the idea of being mentored, I want to do it on my own terms and when I am ready. Thank goodness I wasn't chosen! What I didn't realize was that there were TWO mentors being auctioned off. The lady reading the numbers said it would be "L" who was the mentor and the women were all excited and oohing and ahhing. (I had no idea who it was nor did I really care.) The second set of numbers were called out and no one came forward. They redrew the numbers and while I was looking down and trying not to pay attention, 990 was called. Guess who had that lucky ticket? YEAH, ME. OF COURSE, the lady reading the numbers said, "Oh that is Angie! She's new!" right up in front of everyone and all eyes were on me. I wanted to curl up in a ball under the table or pass out, one or the other. Come to find out, "L" is the one leading the bible study. How lovely. I DO NOT WANT TO DO THIS. After the study was over, I ducked out pretty quickly, though I do want to mention that I did look around for "L" to exchange phone numbers but I didn't see her though I didn't really try that hard. *SIGH* "L" called me today to set up a time to talk. I didn't want to sound like the horrible rotten person that I am so I agreed to meet with her next week. I now have to find a babysitter for a lunch date that I am dreading. While in the end, I'm sure it will be fine (albeit awkward), I think I'd rather pass a kidney stone then go through with it. Ok, wait, no, not a kidney stone but maybe a severe beating.