What else?

Something strange has happened and I just need to write about it so I feel better. A couple of nights ago I noticed I had some blood in my urine. In the middle of the night I woke up with abdominal cramping and thought AF was on the way. I continued to cramp all day yesterday and thought for sure I was getting AF. This morning I woke up at 5:00 and needed to pee and when I went, my entire urine stream was blood. Obviously, something is very wrong. I went to see my primary care doc today and he ruled out a UTI as I have not even a trace of infection in my urine. I could possibly have a kidney stone floating around in my bladder but I've had no back pain whatsoever to indicate that I've passed one. An ectopic preg was also ruled out as I had to take a preg test and that was a BFN. My doc is sending me to BAMC to get a Cystogram of my bladder and it's scheduled for a week from now. I guess I won't die within a week? The Cystogram scares the hello out of me. I'll have to have a catheter inserted to my bladder and then using contrast dye, they will take x-rays as the dye goes in and as my urine goes back out. I'll have to fast for this and also have a full bladder (I was told that I have to drink 1 liter of water before my appt). Shoot me. Why is this happening?? I'm going to have to sit out another medicated fertility cycle and hopefully we can try again in July. Yeah, JULY. That seems like a REALLY long time from now. Work and travel schedules just make it too difficult to try before then. I think crying would feel good about now...