FET #4

I am so completely frustrated with the clinic in AZ.  I'm tired of this non-sense.  This really should not be this difficult!  I guess I should have just shipped the embryos here to TX and paid triple what I'm paying to do it in AZ.  Lesson learned. AF came at an inconvenient time (wait, when doesn't it?) and I understand that it made things a bit more difficult for scheduling appts and such but...really, it should NOT be this much red tape for an FET.  I called twice on Friday to try and get orders for a u/s that was supposed to be scheduled for today.  Surprise, no one called me back so I left a semi nice voicemail for my nurse on her cell phone.  She did end up calling me back and apologizing that no one gave her the messages but she said I needed to call on Monday to try and get orders.  SIGH.  I've called 14 billion times today and TX has yet to get the orders.  I am now on CD4 and I was supposed to get a u/s on Sat...TX isn't open on Sat and oh, they don't do u/s's past noon on weekdays.  That means that I didn't get in for a u/s today either.  I've made an appt for tomorrow WITHOUT orders and I'm praying that it all works out.  Nothing is ever EVER easy when it comes to infertility. 

I've already started 2mg Estrace twice a day to shut down my ovaries.  I would hate to waste all that medicine and have to cancel this cycle.  The longer I wait to do this, the higher the price of air fare.  The last two times I've done this, I had bought my tickets by CD2.  Now I'm going to have to wait until AT LEAST CD5.  Not cool AZ, NOT COOL. 

I've asked to see if we can manipulate my cycle enough to do the actual transfer on a Friday.  It just works out better for all involved if we can.  I REALLY REALLY hope this is the last time I have to deal with AZ.  I'm over it and just plain sick of the runaround.  Now if my body could just figure out how to get and STAY pregnant...

Father, it's in Your hands.  I know that Your timing is always perfect.  Help me to let it all go and to trust completely in You and Your timing.  Those are your precious babies in Arizona and I know that you love them even more than I do.  I just ask that You would calm my heart and prepare my body for those babies.  You always do immeasurably more than I could ever ask... You are so good to me.