I had an "infertility class" at BAMC (Ok it's really SAMMC now but whatever) today and it left me feeling overwhelmed. Yes, there was a big part of it that dealt with "what is infertility" but it was done well overall. There were people there that had never had any infertility testing done and there were others, like me, who have done it all. What I did learn is that my referral was accepted for a consultation but that no way guarantees me a spot in the IVF program. It looks like that if I can get a consultation in January, I may be able to do IVF in August 2013. Umm...In August of 2013, we'll be living in Augusta, Georgia. Yes, I can come back to SA to do IVF here but it puts my husband in a very difficult spot due to his new job as a squadron commander. It's certainly doable but we're just not sure if we should go this route now. It just leaves my mind swimming. It makes me feel like we don't have any direction or a plan anymore.
BAMC has some serious rules to their program that I wasn't fully aware of before. If I don't answer my phone when they call for the consult appt, I will be dropped from the program. If I wouldn't have turned in all the paperwork from today's class, I would be dropped. Over 40 years old? They won't even look at you. Single? They won't see you either. Got a BMI over 30? You're out. Live overseas? NOPE. Sure, they have some of the best stats in the nation for IVF with their live birth rate at 52% and a pregnancy rate of 56% but good luck getting in.
Now, I have NEVER posted song lyrics on my blog...NEVER, but I have been hearing a song on Air1 and I googled the lyrics. This song sings to my heart so I have to post. It says everything that I wish I could say...
Kutless Even If Lyrics
Sometimes all we have to hold on to
Is what we know is true of who You are
So when the heartache hits like a hurricane
That could never change who You are
And we trust in who You are
Even if the healing doesn't come
And life falls apart
And dreams are still undone
You are God You are good
Forever faithful One
Even if the healing
Even if the healing doesn't come
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/k/kutless/even+if_21003553.html ]
Lord we know your ways are not our ways
So we set our faith in who You are
Even though You reign high above us
You tenderly love us
We know Your heart
And we rest in who You are
You're still the Great and Mighty One
We trust You always
You're working all things for our good
We'll sing your praise
You are God and we will bless You
As the Good and Faithful One
You are God and we will bless You
Even if the healing doesn't come
Even if the healing doesn't come
Is what we know is true of who You are
So when the heartache hits like a hurricane
That could never change who You are
And we trust in who You are
Even if the healing doesn't come
And life falls apart
And dreams are still undone
You are God You are good
Forever faithful One
Even if the healing
Even if the healing doesn't come
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/k/kutless/even+if_21003553.html ]
Lord we know your ways are not our ways
So we set our faith in who You are
Even though You reign high above us
You tenderly love us
We know Your heart
And we rest in who You are
You're still the Great and Mighty One
We trust You always
You're working all things for our good
We'll sing your praise
You are God and we will bless You
As the Good and Faithful One
You are God and we will bless You
Even if the healing doesn't come
Even if the healing doesn't come
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