Another Month of Waiting

I'm a planner.  I'm also a person who typically freaks out when I get any kind of news, whether it be good or bad, but especially when it has to do figuring out plans.  I do eventually calm down, but for some reason I just need a good freak out period to help clear my mind and then I'm usually good to go. (That is with the help of many great friends who have listened to me cry and complain through the years.) 

I was told that I would be in group three of four for IVF.  That means that I was too early to start bcp's (birth control pills) when I got AF the end of last month.  I wasn't too thrilled about waiting another month/cycle and had a slight heart attack when the IVF coordinator told me that my egg retrieval should be around May 5, with the embryo transfer 3 or 5 days after.  There are some big conflicting plans around that time and when I hit my panic mode, my dear, sweet, loving husband had to remind me once again that it won't be the end of life if we have to miss a bit of a work conference (training for our next assignment) we're signed up for, for that exact same week.  Since then, I've been strangely calm about everything even though we can't figure out a time to go house hunting, not that we even have any orders to move yet.  Things don't seem to be lining up how I think they should, but isn't that the best time for God to do some molding and shaping in my life?  Is that true for you too?  I've had to take a step back and remind myself once again we won't be homeless, I will find my daughter a good preschool, and the IVF madness will work itself out-but only by the grace of God.  I truly trust that what He's doing is going to help me grow and I fully trust that He will put us in the exact neighborhood He wants us in. 

This month of waiting has ended up being really good for me, even though it wasn't what I orginally wanted.  Maybe it's just the calm before the storm but I'm really OK with that now. 

One of these days, if anyone is interested, I'll share my semi-funny but very crazy IVF/move to Kansas while my husband was in Vegas story. I'm hoping this next move doesn't turn into the very same thing. 

If you want to pray for us.  Pray:

-For hearts of contentment for any way this IVF cycle turns out
-For peace and low stress during IVF and moving
-That I will continue desiring a quiet time with focused prayer and a hunger for God's word

I love you all!