First Maryland Post!

I really should be getting groceries right now but instead I thought I'd finally write my first post from Maryland. We moved in July and so far I like it here, though it might be another story when winter comes around (I'm already so stinkin' cold it's scary!).  Our neighborhood is wonderful and I could see us raising Skittle here, if we were actually going to live in one place longer than two years that is.  It's older, established and has TONS of kids.   After a lot of debate, we decided to put Skittle in kindergarten at the local neighborhood school.  We are able to walk there (.8 miles each way) and I LOVE being able to do that.  I absolutely cherish that time we spend together, walking and talking.  Skittle has said how much she loves that too-and that she wants to be a crossing-guard when she grows up.  I will say though, it's been VERY tough for me socially here.  I do have one of my best friends of all time here (we live a five minute drive apart!!!!) but I'm having a hard time breaking in to this school.  My anxiety level is actually scaring me a bit and I feel myself pulling away from meeting other people and wanting to hide out.  I guess I've always been like that to a point (MUCH rather be at home than out with a group of people) but having Skittle in school 6.5 hours a day feels funny.  We definitely haven't ruled out homeschooling at DH's next assignment so we'll see happens what then. 


I haven't written much because there really hasn't been much to tell in my world of infertility.  I FINALLY got a refund check from my canceled FET procedure from GA...which was a bitter reminder of what will never be.   Walter Reed National Medical Center is semi close-and while I would still have to do all the normal crappy testing I'd have to do anywhere, I'd be able to get right into their program and not have to be on a waiting list for IVF.  I really don't see us doing that but at least I have the option.  A part of me is holding out hope that I can get preg naturally although, I'm getting older and I don't have the eggs I used to (though who knows if they were all that great to begin with).  I do have more options when it comes to healthcare here and I want to take advantage of that.  I'm thinking of going a more holistic approach but even that I don't want to tackle yet.  I'm taking this move as a welcome break-from my obligations of being a military spouse and from infertility treatments.


I guess another reason why I haven't posted is because I have new friends on my fb list.  I like being able to post my blog link on my fb page but having new "friends" read this worries me a bit.  I've friended people from the neighborhood, people from Skittle's school and from her sports activities and I'm not sure I really want them knowing so much personal information about me-when I certainly haven't said anything to them about my infertility or other health issues before.  What would YOU do?

For whatever reason, I can't upload my pics from the computer and only from my phone-and these two are the only ones I have on there. It's a pic of Skittle showing off the first book she read all by herself!

And one of sleepy Jax cuddled up on the couch with me...keeping me warm!!