Too many needles!

I have an arsenal of needles. I really do. I was organizing my fertility meds box (and the fact that I have a box, which is oh, about a foot and a half high by a foot and a half wide, that actually needs organizing is just nuts) and I saw that I have more needles and syringes than any one person needs. I think I have every size and gauge available. Subcutaneous, Intramuscular, 22 and 18 gauge. Too bad I can’t sell them for a profit to pay for all the meds I’m on.

I had my first u/s for this cycle last week. Once again I have fluid in my belly. Where does this stuff come from and what the heck is it? My doctor no longer seems concerned about it so as long as it doesn’t get painful, I won’t worry about it either. I started the Menopur the same night and since it has been about a year since I’ve used the stuff, it took exceptionally long to mix and inject. We learned the hard way that you shouldn’t suck up the liquid with the same needle that you get stuck with. It hurts, a lot. We’ve since remedied the situation and while it still isn’t a pleasant experience (and it probably never will) to get a shot in the stomach, I can handle it…and so can dh.

Today was my CD8 u/s. The fact that the tech had to ask if I was doing IVF this cycle scared me a bit. I have too many follicles already. Granted, I’m being a bit of a renegade and doing things MY way this time around but I don’t think it caused me to have 10 follicles all around the 10mm mark. I’m only doing 75iu of Menopur a day! Someone doing IVF would be on a lot more iu and could have the same 10 follicles. Alright, so we’ve established that my ovaries responds well to stimulation and I’m a good candidate for IVF but that doesn’t mean I want to do it again anytime soon!

So far my lining is only at 5.5mm. It has a ways to go before being suitable for implantation. I’m now waiting on a call from my nurse. Always waiting…One thing I’m definitely learning is how to be patient. Was that God’s intention or just an effect of infertility? We may never know.