PAIN

As of today, I am needle free! Too bad I’m not pain free too. I wish I could explain the pain. It started on Wednesday evening but really started to get bad by Friday afternoon. I was given the OK to do my trigger shot (HCG injection) last night so I thought the pain would lessen. It hasn’t. I get stabbing pain when I walk, sit or stand quickly. When I sneeze I feel like my ovaries might fall out. Here are my three possible explanations for this. 1.) I have gallons of free fluid floating around in my abdomen. 2.) My many follicles are smashed together and have no where to go so they are pushing against my organs. 3.) I have bunches of follicles that are smashed together and gallons of free fluid floating around.

At my last u/s for this cycle, the tech said I have two decent sized follicles (around 15-16mm) on my left side and 2 decent follicles on my right (with 4-6 smallish ones on the left too). Personally, I think they are still too small. My doctor said that we could still proceed with the cycle only if I knew the risks of having a multiple pregnancy. Sure, I do but seriously, what are the chances of that, really…Want some statistics? I only have a 5-10% chance of conceiving naturally. What that really means is that I have a 90-95% chance of NOT conceiving on any given cycle. That sounds just plain awful. By doing the meds that I am, my chances go up to 20% to have a baby. Of that 20%, I have an 11% of having a singleton, 6% of having twins and a 3% chance of having triplets or more. On my IVF cycle I was given a 60% chance of conceiving a singleton. And seeing as how that didn’t work, I don’t see it working this time either. While I’m not meaning to be negative, I just can’t help it at this point. One thing I can be happy about is my lining. It was at a solid 11mm on Friday. That’s the second best lining I’ve ever had.

I should ovulate this weekend and then I enter the dreaded two week wait (2ww). Let the baby making begin!