FET #3

Here I am sitting in Dr. H's waiting room about to begin getting monitored for FET #3. After a lot of talk we've decided to just go ahead and try again right away. Of course, a certain persons work schedule is heavy right now so things are a bit more complicated, but it isn't stopping us.

I had a baseline U/S to look at my ovaries and to make sure my lining is where it should be. All was fine, well, I'm assuming so because AZ never called to let me know either way. Surprise, surprise. For some reason, other than not calling me back today, AZ has been on the ball- at least so far. They faxed all the orders ON TIME and I was able to get an appt without having an anxiety attack. I've gotten plane tickets for March 4-6. I've decided to forgo the second day of bed rest and travel home. I can rest on the plane.

Oh, and last cycle I learned that I do indeed have an allergy to PIO. When the oil would leak back out the needle hole, I would itch like crazy. I broke out in hives and the injection sites swelled so badly that I had a dollar bill sized welt on both sides of my booty. Yes, I was literally dancing around scratching my bum, looking like a bear scratching its back on a tree, even in public. Sad but true. It was BAD. I was switched to the vaginal suppositories. No, it's not much fun but I prefer that to my achy tush. I'm still sore from PIO but I think it's getting better.

I've started Estrace again and have another U/S with blood work on the 27th. Yippy...

BFN

Man, this stuff just never gets any easier. I got several BFN's on my hpt's for the last several days. I have grieved the loss of our four babies. I thought maybe things would go a little easier/faster this time around since my body has already popped a kid out- that it would remember what to do. Apparently, that's not the case. What makes things worse is that I still have to go in to do a beta blood test so it can be documented that I'm not pregnant...and it'll cost $150 to tell me something I already know. It's definitely salt in the wound but it has to be done for the CDC and SART.

Skittle has been a lovely distraction but that doesn't mean that this stings any less. Hopefully we'll be able to try again in a couple cycles.

17 Months!

Saying "cheese!"

Her dress has a "17 Months" sticker on it...not sure if you can tell!

Skittle can now jump! Yes, with BOTH feet off the ground. She also likes to jump from the coffee table to the couch...*sigh* She's a monkey! I simply cannot wait to get her into gymnastics! Less than a month now...

Skittle is also identifying letters of the alphabet. It's actually kind of scary. She knows A,B,C,D,L,M,N,O,P and Y (her favorite). She still "reads" her books but now she picks out the letters that she knows. Wheel of Fortune has become pretty funny as she repeats the letters after the contestants shout them out. She still repeats most words that we ask her to but for some reason "Grandma" comes out as "money." haha!

She goes in for her 18 month check up next week (a little early). DH and I have decided that she will not get the MMR or the varicella vaccinations. We've received exemptions from the state of TX and will get them notarized soon so she can do Mother's Day Out when she's 18 months.

That's all for now!

FINALLY!

I have a lot to write about but I don't think I have enough time before little Skittle wakes up so... this will have to do.

In the world of infertility, the word "finally" is not one you want to say. One person's idea of "finally" is probably not someone else's. I try to be sensitive to other's feelings and I'd like to hope that other's will be sensitive to me. Anyway, my finally has nothing to do with infertility and everything to do with my recent diagnosis.

I finally had my rheumatology appt last week and Dr. R did more for me in one appt than the last guy did in two years. I FINALLY was told that I have fibromyalgia. After 12 years of struggling with unexplained pain, I know what's wrong with me- to have someone else explain that I wasn't crazy or imagining things was wonderful. I did have to give 6 more vials of blood to completely rule out a different autoimmune disease, but Dr. R was very confident that I do have FM. If you're unfamiliar with it, wikipedia's info is pretty accurate. Did you know that endo is one of the main symptoms of FM? I was shocked by that. Dr. R did a very thorough exam on me and he hurt me...a lot. Obviously it was necessary, but I was in so much pain after his poking and prodding that I couldn't get up off the couch that night. He prescribed Flexeril-a muscle relaxer- so I can sleep. I have to say, it does help. One of the best things for FM is rest, and being able to sleep helps me a LOT. The fatigue after that appt has been brutal. Almost the worst I've ever had in fact. Today I'm feeling better and again, I think it has a lot to do with the fact that for the last three nights I've had 12 hrs of sleep each night. I was also told that I need to being stretching everyday...it should help with the muscle pain. We'll see!