Back at it:

I wish I knew a better way to write this, but I don't, so here goes.  I miscarried last week.  I was five weeks along.  It was heartbreaking.  I've slowly come out of my emotional funk and have started pursuing more infertility treatments. 

I had an appt with my PCM who referred me to BAMC's infertility clinic.  It's my first experience with military infertility and so far, I don't like it one bit.  It's probably not fair to say that so early on but I think I'm somewhat justified in saying so.  My PCM told me to go in person to BAMC and talk with the receptionist about getting an appt.  Now, I've only been a military spouse for 6 years now but I've never had a PCM tell me to go anywhere and talk to someone IN PERSON about a referral.  Since I don't think children should be in an infertility clinic due to the sensitivity issues of other patients, I dropped Skittle at Mother's Day Out and drove to BAMC.  I found the clinic easy enough but the receptionist was less than warm to me.  She actually rolled her eyes when I told her my PCM told me to come and talk to her in person.  The only thing I learned today is that yes, I'm on the referral list but she doesn't know if I'll get into the program or not.  If I DO get in, I SHOULD get a call sometime with a MONTH.  If I DON'T get in, I don't get it.  No one calls or lets me know.  I was told to call every week to see what my status is.  I'm glad I went in person since I was able to get the direct number to call her (PCM warned me that I would just get the run around if I tried to get that phone number over the phone) but I still think it's STUPID not to know what's going on. The receptionist also mentioned that even IF I get into the program, I may not be able to get an appt for many months...I MIGHT get a consultation or I might not.  I'm not sure which is worse: military infertility or Arizona with their communication issues. 

So, I wait for months just to know that I can't get an appt??  What a waste of time and energy!!!  I've been told they have an amazing success rate---yeah that's because they are so selective of who they let into their program! 

DH and I have talked about doing IVF with AZ one more time.  Yeah, I know what you're thinking...we're NUTS.  That's probably true but it's the whole "The evil you know vs the evil you don't know" kind of thing.  FETs are probably one of the easiest infertility treatments around and it was a mess month after month with AZ yet here we are thinking of doing IVF (one of the hardest infertility treatments) with them again.  *sigh*  Hey, they helped us get Skittle so they can't be all *that* bad, right?  RIGHT?? 

Instead of waiting for BAMC to figure out what they will do with me, I could just go back to Dr. H or to the other clinic in town.  I'm thankful for all the options available here in San Antonio.  I don't know if I'll have the same kind of choices once we move next summer.  I certainly won't have the same love and support from our families like we do now. 

Comparison prices for IVF:
BAMC: $2,000-3,000
AZ Clinic: $6,300
Dr. H: $16,000
Local clinic: $11,500